Diagnosis

Thankfully I received a diagnosis today. Hypothyroidism. Apparently my TSH levels were critically high, and a lot of my other labs were off which is indicative of the diagnosis. Also it may have actually been the reason for my heavy menstrual periods. No one is really quite sure what symptoms are related to my diagnosis, but hopefully with medication, my TSH levels will normalize and I will be able to determine which symptoms are resolved and which ones are not, so that I can move forward with my treatment and progress towards my healthy lifestyle.

I'm not sure why some diagnoses are easier to hear than others, but this one isn't as distressing as some of the earlier things with which I have been diagnosed.

I am preparing for some serious financial ventures - moving, first time home buying, adoption. I can't wait until I start working a full-time job and have a successful professional career, so that I can work towards some of the goals I have set for myself in the next 5 years. But more to come on that later.

C'est la vie.

Looking forward.

Of course I would forget my own password. Go figure.

Alright, update time.

I am supposed to have an appointment with the doctor for a followup in August, but I don't think I will be making an appointment. I don't feel it will be worth it. I have heard from several other physicians that I should be fine based on my age, and the fact that the white patches were removed, and to be perfectly honest, I just don't want to deal with it anymore.

Also, I have had a nearly 60 pound weight gain in less than 6 months. So I've had some blood work done and will be awaiting the results over the next few days. Hoping this overwhelming decline in my health will have some sort of known cause and be able to be fixed so that I will be able to resume my normal level of functioning - you know, things like walking and not feeling like an extreme asthma attack is going to take my life in that exact moment.

My school work is going well at least, so I don't feel like a complete failure in at least one aspect of my life. Yay?

So, looking forward.

I am looking forward to my own life, my own opinions, my own independence. My mother seems to think her opinion, and only her opinion, matter to the rest of the world. Any deviation or opinions to the contrary are wrong and not welcome here. It's frustrating to think that I will never have a close relationship with her, but I know that my own peace of mind and sanity are worth more than a dysfunctional relationship with her. Looking forward, I have a resilient, strong-willed (and sometimes albeit stubborn) outlook. I know that there are better things on the horizon, but getting there is quite the challenge. Just hoping that maybe, just maybe, my story has a decent ending, one that I am willing to accept, willing to adjust to, and one that I can be happy to live.

Life is not a destination, it's the journey.<3